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December 2022
These last few years have been one of a great degree of change, but only now do I feel like we are seeing the ripple effects. You have probably been contemplating a change in your own life. The ones you need to make, and those you are still on the fence about. Now is the time to buckle down and start instituting some of those changes. It’s in the energy very heavily for the collective.
2023= 7. I’d love to say that this will be a quiet year, but I simply don’t see that. I think among those of us that are in a higher vibe, we may be a bit quieter than typical in public spaces or among friend groups, but I do think that most of the conversations that are had that go beneath the surface will happen in 1:1 relationships/conversations.
People are struggling, and it will be very clear this month just how much; the surface simply won’t do anymore, and those who like to skip along the surface will likely have the most difficulty in 1:1 relationships over 2023. If there were ever a time to take the temperature of the room before you open your mouth, 2023 is that year. It’s also a year to use your discretion to avoid spiritual scandals and being drawn into cult energy…seriously.
But, back to the year we are in. As we wrap up 2022, reflection is paramount. What went well this year? What could have gone better? What moves did you make that prevent you from saying checkmate in the game of good versus bad decisions? What did you learn, and how will you implement that knowledge and those lessons moving forward?
I don’t know about you, but as soon as it hits November I begin reflection mode while undertaking my yearly shadow work. This year was a bit different. This eclipse directly impacted my ability to do that work and it was interesting because almost up until the day of, I didn’t realize how deeply it was affecting my natal chart. This may have been due to it being a busier-than-usual November for me. It wasn’t bad, I just wasn’t able to do the deeper reflections that I like to during this time, almost like it wasn’t the right time actually to do that work. Still not sure what to make of it, but grateful for the experience regardless.
I wanna switch gears here and talk about passion. Passion is also something that came up in November. I had to ask myself the question of where my passion lies and if I have still been giving my energy to things that simply don’t serve. It was interesting sitting with this, processing the emotions that came with it while experiencing them. That particular day was incredibly difficult, and I had no inclination that those feelings were even there until they hit. Many realizations came through, despite not having the traditional isolation that I am used to during my annual shadow season.
This one is for the record books and this channeled message initially came through pretty early in November.
I feel like many of you are on a similar journey, almost as if we know somewhere deep down that 2023 is going to be a different kind of year. Follow those instincts and prepare yourself. A good foundation now can only serve your highest good for what might come our way in 2023.
Make it a point to do some deep and honest reflection this month. Clear out any of the gunk that may be clogging up your ability to hear your higher self and move forward on your path, physical, emotional, spiritual, digital–all of it. Taking the things that no longer serve into this next calendar year has a good chance of tagging along beyond the Spring Equinox and can trip you up later.
You know, I always make it a point to plan and think really deeply about what I want my next year to look like. It’s fair to say that it’s been a noticeable pattern for me over these last 9 years. That said, heading into a 1 year, brand new cycle… I don’t see how it would really serve that; after all, when the 1 energy is present, new horizons have arrived. It is still worth setting an intention though, so I think I will at least do that and would add the gentle suggestion that you consider doing this too.
To find out what year you are entering, you just take the month and day of your birthday and add it to the calendar year you’re heading into.
For example,
April 17, 2023 = 4+1+7+2+0+2+3= 19=10=1
you can calculate all of your numbers at numerology.com
We ultimately can’t plan the way our life will play out one day from the next. That’s what makes the concept of free will so controversial, yet so deeply needed and emphasized in daily life. We can always choose what energy we enter a given cycle with; so regardless of the year you are entering in personally, you are still entering a new year, with new energy, and that should be honored and acknowledged.
I likely won’t be filming any videos before the end of the year, but all my readings are timeless and can be found in the Tarotscopes tab in the menu.
See you next year, Misfits!
November 2022
Channeled Monthly Message
November 1, 2019, was one of the scariest days of my life thus far. So much was already going on in the world, and early that morning, I was going under the knife for the first time to remove a 4cm nodule from my thyroid.
Many thoughts were going through my head that morning. Will another nodule take the rest of my thyroid? Will my voice change? Will I still be able to sing? Will I even still have a voice? Has then been the root of my ills this entire time? Why did it take so damn long to find it? Did I do this to myself?
It was like a loop. What I realized even at that time is that this process, while on the surface comes across as a common medical issue, was actually rooted much deeper in a pattern I had been participating in my entire life. It represented all the things I never said. Every time I never spoke up for myself, the feeling that my needs weren’t enough to voice, every time I spoke in anger that may not have been warranted, and even the language I used to communicate when I bothered to do so.
I spent most of that November in silence as I let my body do the healing it was naturally inclined to do, but it wasn’t easy. I bring up my story because it’s poignant for the energy we are dealing with this month. The discourse has been disturbing for some time, but it seems like it’s gotten infinitely worse. I’m not even sure where that tipping point was.
I have a very personal relationship with Mars and the archetype of Gemini… Mars is debilitated in my chart, and during my dark night, it was pointed directly at these themes. Mars’s energy was in full shadow, chaotic, and in many ways turned inward before that energy manifested outwardly. I believe I have some astro credentials natally to know the shadow side of the energy we are dealing with very well, and this Mars retrograde in Gemini is no joke. If you are going to speak at this time, do so while grounded, centered, and with consciousness; it may alter your path. I can promise you; you’ll thank yourself later. This said, in true Gemini fashion, the opposite is also true, your path may be altered, and you’ll regret the words you spoke later.
Not only do we allow healing by allowing ourselves to gather our thoughts before they are expressed, but a closed mouth is primed to hear the divine. Each opportunity we have to show up as our best selves in discourse is like a little power-up for high vibrational energy.
Despite the Hollywood portrayals of what communication with the divine looks like, in my experience, the divine speaks in synchronicities, visions, plainly in riddles, and does so, so quietly that it’s easy to miss if your mouth is moving.
Many insights came to me in November 2019:
I learned just how powerful my intuitive abilities are and have never questioned them since. A type of unshakeable faith of my personal power that was a game changer for pulling me the rest of the way out of the dark night.
I realized that the plans I had for my YT channel weren’t what the divine had planned. If I’m keeping it all the way real; still waiting for specific instructions on that one, haven’t been directed to shut it down.
I realized that soon, I would need to remove myself from several environments because they were stunting my spiritual growth, along with my economic growth.
I remember experiencing the deepest gratitude thinking about my family, how much they mean to me, and how I am so fortunate to have such a strong support system.
I realized that so many of the people I had been calling friends going back years were, in fact, not. Only recently have I had to do a deep look at the definition of friendship and figure out what my definition is.
Most of all, I realized that ignoring my health in the pursuit of getting above poverty was never going to get me out of poverty but would keep me rooted there. Mindblown, dude.
I realized I drank some bad mystery flavored kool-aid labeled the “definition of success,” and it was literally making me sick. What body part would I lose next to the out-of-control debilitated mars energy for chasing? Not even chasing the wrong things, chasing, period. Chasing depletes your energy. The point was to move with intention and without attachment.
Because of all of this, November 1st has left an indelible mark on my consciousness and is a reminder every year of how close I came to not being here. If you’re not aware, a 4 cm nodule is pretty large, and mine was so bad that it was affecting my ability to swallow water, and eat, and I was merely cells away from forming a relationship with an oncologist.
Had I waited any longer, it probably would have enveloped both sides of my thyroid and certainly would have grown big enough to block my ability to nourish myself and breathe the way things were progressing. It shakes me a little to think of the path that could have played out; a few months later, the world entered the COVID-19 pandemic, and it entered my state first. I’m alive and relatively healthy because I spoke up, grounded, centered, and conscious; I hadn’t done that before.
Importantly, for the first time, I was heard.
For those of you that have been following me for a while, Last year around this time, I received a download about a creepy fun-house type of energy. That energy is upon us with this retrograde…doesn’t feel so undercurrent-y anymore.
Choose wisely.
I hope this makes sense to you. In all fairness, this post may require more than one read for the knowledge to sink in. I will give you some key phrases to meditate on this month, though.
- Is this worth my energy?
- Am I saying what I intend to say and what is the impact of those words?
- What am I chasing and why?
- Is the divine trying to direct me elsewhere?
- Am I in the energy of Reward, Regret, Descent, or Redemption?
Your peace is your power.
When The River Runs Dry
September 2022
The collective is being asked where we want to go next. Distractions are at every turn asking us to shut off our higher minds. What happens when the river runs dry? Similar to what we are seeing on a global scale, literally. History is being unearthed, those things that hid in the water become visible. What’s done in the dark, always comes to light, just like the wind moves the clouds on an overcast day. In the worst circumstances, a disconnect from the divine.
It’s interesting how this concept of social media tells us we should be ourselves, while simultaneously implying that we must change to be successful.
If this is all a matter of being your authentic self to gain visibility as a content creator, then many of the creators I have kept up with wouldn’t be flocking away from these platforms and each one of them would show a multitude of success after being on these platforms for multiple years. Some are, but most are not.
You can’t be yourself and simultaneously comply with an algorithm that only promotes the fanatical, the fringe, and the token.
Anyone who says that you can be is clearly not a content creator. In this work, you are ALWAYS catering to an algorithm overlord, regardless of your topic.
There is no such thing as an overnight success.
You’d be remiss thinking that I’m just complaining about the state of social media and being a small content creator at first glance, and while I have let my stance on this known in previous posts, this is pointing to a darker message that has nothing to do with my opinion.
Look a little deeper, you’ll see the same parallels that I am. This makes the September message one of foreshadowing, where offline practice imitates online behavior more deeply, as if actions don’t have consequences and ripple effects.
It’s a concerning notion that some people’s minds have become completely blurred and they don’t know the difference online and offline. I doubt I am the only one feeling this… like a powder keg is about to be lit. I’ve been feeling this energy since last year. It’s come in waves of strength, but has never completely gone away. Whatever this is will feel like it happened overnight and out of nowhere, but know; this tension has been building for a while.
I read an article the other day about Mount Nyiragongo erupting without warning and how this has changed what volcanologists know to be true about how volcanos behave before an eruption. Even as long as we have been studying volcanoes, nature is still throwing a curveball. The energy I am picking up is a lot like this.
There is a perception or belief that something or someone will react a certain way, and that ends up not being the case, sometimes, the behavior may be much more volatile.
We don’t always know what we don’t know and some things we have no real consciousness of because we’ve never seen or felt it before; just because it is new to you, does not mean, in any form that the concept, thing, or behavior is. Keep this in mind as you navigate this month.
My spidey senses say something is up collectively.
September is a time to finish purging the things, people, and stagnating energies out of your world and be very intentional about the seeds you plant. It’s about to get bumpy and the ride will be much smoother if you have things in order.
The Virgo Season Guide readings are live on the website along with zodiac monthly readings under the Tarotscope tab. Some of these readings may help some of you determine how the month of September will play out for you and the personal themes that may be present.
Protect your energy, Misfits
See you in October.
June 2022
To Sum It Up: Prepare For Tempest
First, a small update:
My website will be changing over the month of June, so as you are checking the site you may notice some differences. Starting in July, the Monthly messages will be incorporated within the blog and the homepage will become static. I’ll make it a point to clearly label these posts and put a link on the static homepage for your easy access. In addition to that, even though my website has been quiet, I’ve been hard at work fighting off the spammers in the comments, so it is very likely that come July I’ll also be removing the ability to comment, as sorting through them for the real comments takes a ridiculous amount of time. I’ve already instituted this change on my YouTube channel. My suggestion is that if you have a comment that you want to share, leave one on my Twitter or Instagram post about that particular monthly message, video, or blog post. Without comments the best way to support my work is by subscribing, liking, sharing, and donating.
While I love having the dynamic page because it keeps things interesting for me, in picking back up on other content creation, it makes more sense for me to streamline this a bit so you have a better experience on my website and my workload is more manageable with all the day-job stuff. Additionally, this will allow you as a subscriber to my website to be notified when those messages go up since it will be within the blog, so make sure to subscribe so you get those notifications; these monthly posts are exclusive to the website!
At last, the break from YouTube and social media is about finished and I am in the process of making all manner of content again. I dipped my toe into creating videos again back in April and while I got half of the readings done, my schedule only allowed for one to get the full post-production process and land on the website, time did not allow for me to do the remaining 6 readings. I’ve made some changes to my schedule, so things should be more consistent moving forward. If you rock with social media, I invite you to follow me on Twitter, Instagram, and Pinterest all with the handle @poacreator and additionally subscribe to my YouTube Channel, Paiges of Ascension. All of these links can be found on this website and they are the only social accounts I have associated with POA (Paiges of Ascension). Also, I’m still not doing personal readings at this time, but those who have added their name to the list will be the first contacted and get first dibs when the books open back up.
I appreciate your patience with the lack of messages for the month of May and the lack of blogs for several months; I’ll be going further into detail on what’s been going on in my channel update video and this one is a must-see as I have some news to share with all of you about where my content will be heading over the remainder of 2022. These particular videos are only posted on this website, but I’ll drop a line on my socials when it goes live.
And now, for the June message!
June
Even now as I listen to this song, it’s giving me chills, which is strange, cause it’s not like I’m in love with Dr. Dre’s music; I’m definitely not in love with all the lyrics even though I grew up listening to music like this… but the overarching message was pretty clear once I looked up the part of the song that was specifically coming through:
“Buck, buck, buck, buck, booyakasha”
All I gotta say is thank goodness for search engines because otherwise, I don’t know if I would have been able to make the connection.
The song was coming through specifically for the word ‘booyakasha,’ which is an Irish/Jamaican word for “ high glory and love to the very moment; triumph, glory praised to be.” It has a dual meaning, though, which was deliberate on my guide’s account to use this word for the message this month. Feel free to look deeper into it.
In a nutshell, I think for many, there is something to celebrate over June, and it’s significant. Whether this is an ending, a new beginning, or just some significant change that is putting you on a new path, I think it’s a welcome change. When you look back on this month 5 years from now, I suspect that many of us will view this as the month that things took a turn.
Where things are turning,… I think that is highly individualized to each person and their path. Collectively… well, we got some surprises in store; good, bad, ugly, and worse. I warned months ago that the “thriller energy” was hovering, but it wasn’t particularly active at that time, and we kind of had a reprieve. I believe this energy will begin increasing again over the latter part of this month. I don’t know exactly how it will manifest; I have my suspicions.
It was no coincidence that this particular word, booyakasha, is what came up, especially in how it did. This word that, in one definition, seems to celebrate a moment of victory with love and gratitude is in a song where someone is basically glorifying taking people out is stark, and I don’t mean taking out on a date if you catch my drift.
External heat can lead to internal heat on a purely physical and emotional level. Plenty of studies link the increase in hot weather to a rise in violence… and it’s getting hot very quickly. Since I’ve had this download and actually got to the computer to write down this channeled message, there have been 4 separate mass shooter incidents in the United States on top of 3 separate incidents of physical assault that I have heard about locally.
Now, I’m definitely not into fear-mongering, and I genuinely believe that individually, many people will have the best month of their lives this June. Still, it raises the question for me of who among us in the collective is not as okay as they are saying they are. Who of our people are we not checking in on? From a collective standpoint, I’m genuinely concerned. The pressurized energy I am picking up on tends to explode without a proper, healthy outlet.
Right now, it’s crucial to ask deeper questions and maintain your center because the information you receive over the month may try to knock you out of it, especially in regards to the health of the collective. If each of us can do that… we can weather this tempest.
The theme of storm energy, or tempest as I prefer to call it, has come up several times over the past week. I was even going through an old journal and ran across a really disturbing dream involving a purple lighting storm.
On a super practical level, this could be coming up because hurricane season is starting in the USA in the places that get that kind of weather. Beyond that practicality, it could be a warning of a major hurricane, like one that REALLY disrupts things like Ida and Katrina did, but maybe worse than either of those because of where it hits or who’s in charge of the storm prep. I don’t know for sure. But I keep seeing the Tower card from The Urban Tarot, and I am sufficiently creeped out.
Bit of a mixed bag, and I wish the good part of this message wasn’t overshadowed by the collective ick I’m picking up, but I hope this helps you navigate this month consciously, safely, and successfully.
See you in July!
Readings for the zodiac season are going up under the Timeless Tarot tab. Please, be patient with me as I get back in the swing of things. The Cancer Season Zodiac Guide Tarot Readings are up and as of transferring this monthly post to a blog post, Cardinal and Fixed signs are live with Mutable signs dropping in just a few days.
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The Impasse – 2 of Swords
The 2 of swords has been following me around constantly for the last few weeks. I haven’t been able to pin down exactly why it’s popping up, but I have deep suspicions on what area of life it’s trying to draw my attention to. That makes its appearance that much more ironic.
I’ve developed this habit. When I keep seeing a card and its symbolism; I sit with it. Then, I do a deep dive refresher on the basic facts of the card. I then sit with it some more and pay close attention to what I am drawn to within the card.
There have been times in my life where this card came up a lot, and it rarely made sense to me at the time why it was doing the stalker thing until I started using what I am going to coin, the “Sit-With-It-Method”(SWIM) of reading Tarot for yourself. I did not intentionally set out to make an acronym called SWIM, but it’s that much funnier that it ended up that way.
The 2 of swords represents Libra overall, but specifically the 1st Decan of Libra around September 22 – October 3. Generally, Libra is most commonly associated with balance and is represented in the zodiac by an old-school scale. The traditional Rider-Waite Smith deck shows a figure sitting on a rock bench, blindfolded, with swords in both hands forming an ‘X’ in front of their body. The view behind them is a choppy water landscape with some hills and a twilight-looking sky.
Imagery aside, this card can really draw you in, especially all the details that are there. It’s different than the 2 of pentacles in that this person is not moving, the landscape around them is. Think about that for a moment. It’s the only 2 in the minor arcana that symbolizes unseen external circumstances in regards to internal decisions. In the 2 of Wands, we see the moment of the decision, the 2 of Cups is shown right as the 2 people are choosing to choose each other (aww). In the 2 of Pentacles, literally everything is moving; the ships, the water, the character, the balls their juggling. The 2 of Pentacles has serious burnout energy attached to it, but the 2 of Swords; we don’t know where they’re at in that decision making process, we just see stillness on their part.
It’s like whatever is going on with this character, some part of the situation they have no control over. Now the interpretation of this card that I learned as a wee tarot reader describes this card as someone being emotionally or mentally indecisive. Their thoughts, their emotions are out of whack, even though they appear to be calm and that all is okay.
It’s not that I don’t see this description of this card anymore, it’s just doesn’t feel complete. Like it wouldn’t completely apply unless it was reversed or ill-aspected in a reading. Because of this, I tend to read the 2 of S energy in that first description, and depending on the impressions I get and the surrounding cards; it can also mean a head over heart choice ( look at that infinity symbol created by the characters arms). The practical versus the desired. In this day and age, the choice between these two can knock on the door of existential crisis for some.
I like to use examples, analogies, and all that stuff to kind of drive a point home, so, here is a scenario.
You’re out with some friends at the beach and you all decide to play a game (humor me). This game involves an apple air tag and 2 phones. Your friends are known to be pranksters, so you’re expecting something to go down, you just don’t know what. They sit you down on some hard-ass bench, blindfold you, and tell you to hold the phones much like the character in the card. Your task, you find out, is to use the correct phone to find the air tag. They both will pick up the location, but only one phone will give you the accurate one.
You’re chilling on the bench counting to 50 and can suddenly hear what feels like… everything. People talking, children laughing, someone making something on the grill, cars starting in the parking lot. You can also smell everything, the seawater, smoke, gasoline, etc. You also hear the crash of the waves that make them feel much closer to you than they actually are so there is a small presence of fear that they will sneak up and overtake you. Dusk is soon and there’s a high tide coming in that would make the bench you’re on double as a rest spot for a seal, so time is of the essence.
Just like in this card, you have lost the sense of sight and your body naturally boosted all the other senses to try and compensate. The person on the card can’t see anything, and to a degree, they can’t feel anything either other than the bench, the blindfold, and what’s in their hands. They can hear and they can smell, though. This means all they can rely on is those 2 senses to determine what’s going on around them while they can’t see.
Depending on the context of the reading, either the person is hiding something by not showing their eyes, or someone/something has blocked them from seeing because something is being hidden from them. There is also the possibility, that spirit is blocking them from seeing something for some reason too. In my mind, it only makes sense to look at the 2 of S, at least partially, as an external influence because of all that water, even though this is not the traditional interpretation. Traditionally, all that water represents emotions.
Here’s what’s really cool about this card though when it pops up for you. It says that you are holding steady despite external disruptions and blockages. It also says that even though you feel super queasy cause you can’t physically see what’s going on, you can still SEE enough to know what moves to make, and if you should move at all, so you can rip that blindfold off. It screams following your intuition for me in regards to making a decision, as many 2 cards tend to do.
In the real world, regardless of whether it’s being done to you or by you, the energy is most certainly that of an impasse.
Impasse- noun
A situation in which no progress is possible, especially because of disagreement; a deadlock.
Oxford Languages
The character may want to remove the blindfold to see but is possibly too afraid to do so because of WHAT they might potentially see or WHAT will happen if they let go of one of those swords to remove the blindfold. If they just dropped one of those swords, this whole blog post would be moot, really; but they hold on to that “belief” or “thought” and as a result; A classic fork in the road scenario presents itself. Does one let the swords go or hold on for dear life.
Such a conundrum of symbolism in this card. It isn’t necessarily just “ this or that” but is also “this AND that”, if you catch my drift. Much like the concept of a paradox.
I think the best advice that I can give when the 2 of Swords show up in your life is to remember that you have other senses and you should use them, that they are probably heightened because one is cut off.
If you take a deep breath and clear your mind (ahem, meditation anyone) the answers you need will come to you. Remember, the idea of “trying” in meditation sorta defeats the purpose of meditation; you’re not “trying” to do anything. Yet, another paradox, lol.
These are just some of the observations I’ve had when running into this card over the years. It is by no means the only interpretation of it and some readers would violently disagree with everything I’ve written. That’s okay. I will always encourage people to do their own research and work with the tarot in the way that is comfortable to them. No one will know the language between you and the Creator better than you and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Also, it’s kind of asinine to try to control what other people think and do; it’s the equivalent of saying there’s only one way to be a psychic, or to cook broccoli for crying out loud, mmm…nah.
We’re all sovereign beings so, yeah, don’t have time for any of that nonsense over here on POA! Nurture, nature, and our divinely gifted intuition all come into play when it comes to interpreting the symbolisms that are presented to us. Keep that in mind as you travel deeper on your journey of self-knowledge. Remember the Healer’s Trinity.
I hope you found this post on the 2 of Swords helpful or at the very least, insightful enough to get you thinking a little bit deeper about this card.
Do you have an observation about the 2 of Swords that I didn’t mention? Feel free to let the community know in the comments 🙂
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